how and what do you feel wen uve been chased out from yr hse?you may think its crazy but hey..look..im going tru that..dont trust me?haha! i noe u wont..maybe im sad and fumed up at the same time..he said that to me a few minutes ago..now im in my room lying on my bed..feeling all fucked up!idk wat to do now..the moment he said that to me,1st thing in my mind,shld i get out from this hse..then second tot,maybe i shld just tompang awhile,while i get some part-time job and use the money for my daily expenses..lying down in this room make me feel uncomfortable now..make me feel like im  not at hme..well i am not..ive been chased out remember! seriously i dont feel nice now..even if tmrw they were to give me my allowance ill feel berat hati to take it..like wow! tenant get some money housekeeper..i dont think i can face them now..i think i rather stay in this room to avoid awkwardness..honestly i cant think!! now i feel very remorseful for not taking up part time job during holiday..but then ive tried my best still i didnt get a single job..aft that lousy job,i was busy travelling to malaysa..holiday la,shopping la,survey my kak sdare wedding stuff la..busy!! shit la wat to do sia now.. if i wna work,where shld that be?wen to work?friday saturday sunday? hows my cca and angklung?how my studies?how to revise?esp during exam,how to study?can i sope with it? do anyone have any kenalan yg nk diajar..saya nk mengajar..atleast mengajar tk la penat sgt and atleast have time to study..i really need to teach..anyone have any kenalan pls pass it to me can? i desperately need it..

maybe i may not have a wonderful birthday this year aft being chased out..
i tot i can have my 18colourful baloons for my birthday..
aft being chased out i felt like my life will be as hard as last year..much harder...
haix...